Random ramblings

Just lately, I have been struggling (again) with a low mood, lack of sleep and all the crap that goes along with depression as well as a leak in my ceiling. My lovely neighbour upstairs has a crack in her shower tray and all the water is coming through my ceiling and into the living room, it has been for several weeks now. Annoyingly, our landlady is completely ignoring our emails and calls so nothing is being done about it. Outwardly, I wasn’t worried, I had towels and a pot to catch the water in and had moved my living room around so that the water didn’t get on my sofa. I have emailed several pictures of it to my landlady and had no response so I got the council involved. A lovely man from their private tenant department came round, took loads of notes and pictures of my issue and issues from a couple of other flats and assured me that, although it will take time because of the legal process they have to follow, it would get sorted. Although I wasn’t consciously bothered by this, I guess my brain was because after the man from the council came and I knew it was being dealt with, I slept for a little over 9 hours straight. Bearing in mind, I had been merely coping on 3-4 hours for several weeks, this was amazing!

I have been sensible though and saw my doctor yesterday. She prescribed me some sleeping tablets and said that she wanted me to try Cognitive Behavioural Therapy rather than switch my medication as, until recently, I was doing quite well on it. The sleeping tablets worked their trick last night but I woke up pretty fuzzy headed, not something to take on a Tuesday as that’s when I have a morning lecture at uni and I probably wouldn’t take anything in!

If you are struggling, like I was, seek help as soon as you notice it, keep in touch with friends or family and remember you are not alone. My friends and family have been a great comfort to me, as has my university mentor and it is this that stops me getting as badly depressed as I have been. If you know someone who you think is struggling, don’t assume they will contact you to tell you what is going on with them, a quick text or email will remind them someone is thinking of them and if they reply and reach out, think of how great it will make you feel. Once I am over this short blip, I will be back to my usual posts, I promise.

In honour of a lovely lady

This post is dedicated to a lovely lady who has been going through a horrific time of late. I am sure as she and some of my other friends read this they will know exactly who I am talking about. The lady in question is 30 and has a gorgeous son, a toddler and is fighting breast cancer. Sadly, I know too many people who have been struck by this evil disease which is why I check my breasts regularly, perhaps more often than I need to but that doesn’t do any harm. 

Anyway, this lady has just finished her last round of chemotherapy and through it with the exception of a few and well understood wobbles has retained her sense of humour. She will start blushing shortly as me and most of her friends think she is simply awesome. Not many people can joke about losing eyelashes or eyebrows but she did. I have become less moany (yes, really!) as a result of this woman’s strength. After all, how can I possibly moan about a lack of money or slipping off a step when this woman is going through one of the most gruelling treatments and still looking after her son? 

As a tiny show of solidarity I am dyeing my hair pink in an effort to raise money for Cancer Research and would ask, politely of course, that you donate even a small amount to the cause. I know that things are very tight financially at the moment but this is a cause that I have supported for many years. If you can’t donate anything, please share the link to my Justgiving page and share the word as widely as you can. 

Thank you for taking the time to read this post and please send all your positive vibes to my lovely friend.